everything had shattered. everything had been gone away for good this time. and the feeling that was left couldn't give to my heart a normal beat. I was empty, as if my whole existence could be dissolved at a touch. and I had no longer control over my thoughts and emotions, they had all vanished before I could even save them. so I was standing there in my empty room, sitting on my unmade bed and staring at my own devastated face in the mirror when I started whispering a desperate pray to any major force: please, lord, bring me back some emotion. make this life livable. make anything happen again.